mi dream .....

everybody in this world has dreams. some while sleeping, some while not , some unknowingly and some intentionally... some become true and some dont......
but waat are these dreams are they just crap coming out of a tired mind in search of sleep, random thoughts in our mind clubbed together without any connection or wait or is there something for us to know more about dreams and the answer is yes and during the next 5 mins u will know why....
it has been two weeks since i had this dream it was a weird one to start with a mixture of crap at first glance and the more important thing about dreams is if u dont think about them immediately after u get up from sleep u tend to lose them forever and of course till they become true and relly happen in ur life u tend to forget them forever, mi dream goes like this
its mi hostel nilgiri and the weather outside is pretty murky and dull and the corriders even darker and am roaming about in the corridors c wing fist, then i hear noise and din in the ground floor and then i find out there is a long line of people waiting and at the far end our mess staff distributing some packets containing sweets i guess, so being hungry i also get into the line but suddenly i saw a batchmate of mine who was not a friend the only exception in mi batch politically against me also in the batch and some of mi state juniors as i am used to love and respect from most of mi fellow hostelmates and staff i never thought twice but the sight of that lone batchmate starring at me with crooked eyes some whaat disturbed me and with a fast beating heart i progreessed forward and suddenly wen i reached the counter the mess staff with an ever smiling face put his hand outward to give me not one but two packets but suddenly the batch mate of mine shouts "sir why r u giving him he is a passout", startled at the development i move out of the corridor to the lawn playing with a cricket ball bouncing it on to the hostels wall catching it , suudenly i see three of my super seniors ( who were final yearites when i was a fresher) coming out and i run out and hug them and one of them catches mi cheeks casolling me as if i was a small boy and as we move out the scene changes outside there is commotion ,chaos every where with cars journalists scores of people in groups some crying some giving interview some shouting and now zooooooommmmm comes in a car and out comes maddy mi .. our batche's closest senior and he with a serious face escorts us into the car and while entering the car i hear protesters!!! shouting giving interviews and in we go into the car and out we come to the entrance of AIIMS and people thrr are wearing masks and tthey also stuff us with masks cottoon to the extent of suffocating us ... i ask maddy as wat is goin on and he replys that it was same thing i had heard ... now i scratch mi head wat was that same and strange thing he retorts "chiranjeevi is down with swine flue" .... startled and shocked i freeze and then it was vidya sagra who shook me off mi sleeep.....

times have changed....

it has been 3 months, since our era ended at "Nilgiri", which had been our everything for the last few years, That "c" long and "D" long which have in them zillions and zillions of memories of mine with mi friends hiddden ..... , " the darkest of secrets" for many i guess hehhe !!!.so why am i writing this... i just saw the video "mi world" i uploaded on youtube on the eve of our house day 2009. it suddenly brought back memories of those 4 years. but as steve waugh said in his farewell speech and so did our own ganguly that it was hard to leave the team and they would miss the fun they had with their teammates all those years....
As in cricket the timing in real life for everything should be perfect if its not then we mortals will be affected by this, i have learnt few things over the weekend that without ur friends by ur side hostel doesnt remain the hostel u remember.... and when its ur times up then u should move on passing on the baton to the future generations to take ur place, i experianced it when the freshers of 2009 came literally asking me to vacate the place. it was painful but these are some truths of life which we learn in our brief stay here on planet earth

.....Rab ne bana di jodi.....

Date : 14th december 2009
time : very close to 12.00pm
location: jwala circle in iit delhi
those were the days when the world was still trying hard to figure out waat hit it , people round the globe were reeling under the effect of the devil called "recession" and we as iitians were no exceptions .... december was the time for the job season to be in full swing, but this time around the scene was totally different reputations down the drain cgpa or no cgpa, P O RS or no PORS , extra ciricullars hardly mattered nobody knew wat was going to work and wat not worked even after the 11th day of placement department toppers of atleast 5 departments of btech were no were close to getting placed ( u can imagine the plight of mtechs) and as a six pointer i was playing mi part nicely , i had seen many of mi close friends from close quarters who were department toppers and not being placed even after the 10th day of placement had literally shaken them who were hoping to get placed on the ist and at the most on the 2nd day admist of all this i was enjoying all the process nicely recession hadnt reached i guess till then .........
but on the day one of mi close friends got placed something rang in mi mind ...till that time i was happy helping him out getting printouts of his resumes not really thinking about miself i had a valid reason for that i done mi best in the ist ten days getting shortlisted in some of the companies and then writing the xams for afew of them but now the question rang waat next ...and all mi friends who were placed were planning to go home this shook me all the more ...alas!! in waat world was i living in a fantasy world of mi own but this removed all mi misconceptions " yeh life hain bete akele aye thein aur akele jayenge " but kya karein this was new to me and things around me were changing so fast i hardly had time to react every other day some frind drops in with a news that he got placed...and slowly the hostel was becoming deserted leaving a select few as thrr was a 10 days break for the inter iit that was to be held in the break on the eve of this break some bodys b day was thrr as usual all were going to meet up at jwala circle for the customary bumps and cake licking program , even though least interested in all this i went thrr in the hope of changing mi mood and heard a friend say that " yaar songs tho mast hain yaar dil ko chuleta hain ... seriously cant stop listening to that song .... hey sammy boy h"ard that new song " he asked. "nope not even caring to know which one was he refferring to ..." ...." u should hear the new song from rab ne bana di jodi ull definitly love it " he advised "oh really !! ho come u know mi taste .... dekhe the hain " so with a heavy heart i walked bac alone to mi room checked for the updates on the "T n P " (training and placement cell) there was new companies applied in some of them and the weather which can be termed as nice and sexy in happier times appeared to add to mi problems and then i switched on the lan and tried to search something and by chance i read something "Rab ne bana di jodi" started downloading it ...
as it was peak winter and one mi window panes broken there were chilly winds coming and then i played the song " tujme rab dikhtha hain yaara main kya karoon" thats it!! i lost it then and there !!!.... i was left speech less i couldnt move for godsake " kya song hain yaar " played it once more could see the intensity in the voice giving everything to her beloved nothing mattered in this world to her she saw only him , i played it again and again and left it in the repeat mode and slept off to a well deserved sleep which i was missing for the last few days ... the next morning.....
" abe ho samrat sale pagal hogaya kya ???? wats the matter with u" shouted a frind frm outside shooked up from sleep opened the door " kyaa huaa bey aaj tho chutti hain naa kyon utaya " fri: "tu theek tho hain kya hua ek hi gaana raat bar sun raha tha dimag tho theek hain"
suddenly heard " rab neeee bana deee jodi...." "ohhh forgot to switch it off kya song hain yaar must have heard it a 100 times " muttering this to miself i strutted forward to switch it off then...fri:" aur sun tune headstrong main apply kiya tha kyaa tu shortlist hogaya ... exam 19th ko hain jis din reopen hoga season tayyar rahi ho../."
................. " waaat shortlist hogaya was this the beginning of a new chapter ...."
for more read this pace ................

life is funny ..."F.R.I.E.N.D.S"

......Dont worry guys and gals this will not b boring i promise u "friends" has always been mi favourite topic to write and here @ iit delhi i had umpteen no of experiances here which if i write in detail would out sell "5 point someone" (i know that would happen some day in near future till that time bear with me) . actually i was watching di chahta hai donno but seriously after 8 years also that movie is still refreshingly new in mi mind it has everything for friends to look for in,
see whenever any father or mother becomes very close to any one the dailogue that comes to mind is " he/she is not mi parent but more like a friend to me" i guess this sentence sums it all that the closest any human can get to any other is i guess as a friend .....
i had very good experiances which actually has taught me many things even at the fag end of mi 4 years i learnt many important things which i know i ll never forget in mi entire life Friends come in all shapes and sizes, all colors of the vibgyor. The secret to be happy and make them happy is live and let live hehe ... take ur space and give them their own space of course i learnt it the hard way its not necessary and more importantly very natural that two close friends dont have the same opinion on a topic, friends are like the parallel rails " kabhie juda bhi nahin aur kabhie paas bhi nahin" i know if u ask mi friends i can be a bit of pain in the ass and kudos to all those who had the patience to bear with me all these 4 years of course some simply gave in (it had to happen...) but some still keep on the gud work of bearing with me inspite of zillions and zillions of piss offers( this is a new term which means a thing done by u which pisses the opposite person to near death situation)
the important sutra for staying happy as many of mi friends tell me but i have still not figured it out and beneficial for ones own health is "love thyself first everything else comes next " shayad such hi hoga ... i have had many fights with mi friends spent many months not talking hehe one of mi big time piss offer one of the famous fight by virtue of which am still not talking to one of mi friends hehe... now looking bac at the taht episode i can only laugh even if we both talk to each other or not nothing gonna change in this world earth will keep revolving around the sun, sunday will still be a holiday, the age limit for drinking will still be 25, profs here at iit will still jump at the option of giving fucka to students. magar jab tum ladte ho naa kissise and swear that ull never talk to him all ur life ull invariably giving him more mind space and time than before i have found it miself and it results in nothing more than frustation boiling of ur blood, mental headaches and with the ever ending list of day to day problems do we still need newer problems the funda is live ur life and let him live his life gussa thuuk do yaar its gud for health ull find out after this that episode will in due course of time fade out and will cease to trouble u , yes i know things work in a funny manner in case of our human brain on the eve of india turning 62 today i have lots more to write but i guess i need to catch some sleep ... c u all tommorow

life is funny...

After 4 years at a place where u have done everything not finding a place to sleep and browse net sounds at times awkward and at times funny and at times a touch emotional... now i guess its a mix of nostalgia coupled with funny feeling coupled together making up for a nice cocktail!!!
At first i thought that i would somehow find some reason to stay back here at iit as i felt this was the place made for me and i couldnt live without it, like a fish which cant live long outside water but this is mi first weekend after mi convocation last sunday its becoming harder and harder living here, the no of recognisible faces decreasing exponentially since convocation, the errie feeling of being a stranger in a place where i once enjoyed being as they say "yahan ke hum sikander" types (hehe...) here am sitting in the computer room of mi hostel which has been dysfunctional for the last 4 years i guess was a part of some 5 years plan , thanks to it i have a place to write mi blog, getting your job defferred can act both ways u can look at it ur own way get depressed to the maximum as if heaven has fallen on u, as if the almighty has zeroed on u for unleashing hi flurry of miseries on u as if u were some experimental rat in his lab , brood over ur bad luck like a young widow or look at it the other way the good way talk to urself that u have got time which not many of ur friends have got quality time to look at the larger perspective of life do things that u always wanted to do sit back and enjoy the well deserved break u have got after 4 years of hurry burry tension filled life, but dost kya karein its easier said than done life can get pretty tough at times and with a social system like ours where anything out of the usual is frowned upon ppl around u ask more questions than ur profs ever did at college waat ur son is not doing engineering ???? there might be some problem with him kya tu cat ke liye nahin pad raha hain kya and our iit is just a mere reflection of the society around us interested in mba or not all 4th yearites invariably have to take sunday tests spending their quality weekends at some damn coaching place , interested in consulting or not invariably mckensy will still get the maximum applicants at the tnp site, am not complaining i just wanted to tell u wat all i faced more importantly during mi last year of life here in iit .....