ZNMDB!!!

5 am I- 210......Indore....not a soul awake ...i and a guard who is watching SHRI krishna are the exceptions.....2 things happened in the last 2 days which had some effect on me one a workshop on "career & self " ....at first look it looks like the most boring thing to do....yes it was boring..but there was this questionnaire we had to fill it up,actually in pairs of two, but as our class was Odd numbered and i sitting in the ist bench was paired up with the prof, actually i wanted this ....because may be i wanted to share those secrets with the prof because i was too shy to do it with anyone of my fellow class mates, and in the middle of the questionnaire every thing was coming tumbling down, my darkest fears in life, the things i want to reverse in life. A i wanted to tell this to the prof was because he knew nothing about me and he was the last person in the class who would be affected by my feelings and when i read the completed form ...i felt different !!!, i felt fresh...

then the 2nd thing i saw "Zindagi milgei na dobbara" i had deffer ed seeing it due to lack of sleep, and reviews that it was drag and slow, but it was nothing of that sort at least for me it was so refreshing seeing it, the characters were so fresh, so different, i guess they were also in the stage of spitting it out everything out of their system, obsessiveness it was as if the biggest " Gaali" on earth " A life of my own"....over the years i have simply forgotten about my life what i wanted what i loved , stuck in the whole vicious cycle of expectations from others, obsessiveness, Strings attached ...... i thought ...sorry am thinking...now onwards cmon life bring it on in katrina's words "Zindagi mujhe surprise karti rahe or inspire karthi rahe......"

i just want to sit on the top of my hostel block with wind on mi face.........................................