Excuse me !!!!

I am an iitian, yes u have heard it rite .. mi life here at iit is coming to an end minors,assignments,lab reports, niteouts, sittings, deadlines, house days, placements frustations, rejections, dissappointments and what not ... life just passed by and i was a mere spectator as they say a mere Brick in the wall But One Night......
"Shit!! idaa answer arey yaar how could i miss this hmmm " CAT was fast approaching and it was the mid sem break and the hostel had become almost deserted mi watch read 3.30 am time for a coffee break i guess , put on mi jacket and slowly started down stairs the hostel had this eerrie silence, not a soul to be seen mi foot steps echoed in the hostel a rare sight got to the entrance brrr.... chilly winds adding to mi woes , "gaurd saab" no answer he was snoring away to glory " wat a life!!! the world is celebarting diwali and am stuck in this place with no soul to even to talk and they say i am what u dream to be bull shit , wy do i always have this lonliness, dejection for company wy cant i have someone to share mi feelings with i guess some r destined to lead a life as ..cking as is mine" disgusted with mi life i pondered upon things to do the next day. then i saw someone coming neatly dressed with a file and suitcase in hand " some brother or friend of some one" i thought " Excuse me ye nilgiri hi hain naa" he asked. " yes sir looking for someone " i asked " hi am Rahul verma am looking for sanjeev kappor " "pleased to see u sir am samrat,sanjeev kapoor , mtech yaa btech which year?" i asked "aaann he is... " " good morning sir" suddenly gaurd saab intervened our conversation " haan gaurd saab ye kisi student ko milna chahte hain register main dekhne ek baar" G:" haan sir andar aaiye" S:" sanjeeeeev ..sanjeeeeeev haan got it but this was just sanjeev haan sir" i turned right to tell him but was surprised not to see him, R: " ye painting aapne kahan liya its really amazing !!" he was starring at a painting hung on the entrance S:"ye actually this was brought by some of my seniors when i was in the first year " R:" T K S SAMRAT House Secy ohh ur the house secy of this hostel gudd" S:" yes sir would u like to sit in the guest room, bahar tand bhi hain" R: " yaa sure i guess u r having some renovation work going on in ur hostel " S:" yes air its actually the common room, this way sir " showing the way took him to the guest room. Starring at the house secy board which had the list of all the house secretaries till date, as if trying to find some name he looked at it very closely" aaannn.... aaannn 1983 aditya sharma haan aditya sharma hehe, gud old adi never to lose a tennis match, always missing out on morning classes thoses days were reallly full of fun" he muttered to himself forgetting about me S:" sirr " R:" yayaa do u know aditya sharma he was ur house secy yaar" S:"Aditya sharma 1982 aann i was not even born then sir " R:" oh yaa sorry sorry u were not even born then ok kidar se ho aaap" S:"hyderabad" R:" ohh Hyderabad which dept" S:" chemical" R:" ohh chemical is Dr O P Gupta still there" S:" never heard abot him donno sir" R:" okok leave it is ther any place where i can get some tea or coffee" S:" yes sir nescafe is just 10 mins walk from here", R: " ohh gud i can also see around iit ", then we started for nescafe, there were chilly winds blowing, but atleast i had company now

S:"so when did u pass out which dept?" vroooommmmm....... a bike sped by rahul, R:" what was that, a bike are bikes allowed in the campus nowadays", S:" hehe not really but students often keep them always finding new ways to hide the bikes from the authorities ", R:"whats this a restaurant inside the campus!!" S:" ohh its the uth cafe the newly opened student canteen" R:" gr8 iit has definitly changed a lot we had to walk miles before we could get anything to eat that too outside iit". Now we had reached nescafe S:" sir maagi" R:" yaa sure now students here smoke openly also donno whether this is really an improvement" S:" anaan this has become a common feature in iit, cant help it i guess" R:" what do u mean by cant help it u can definitly solve it after all its the students who should act responsibily, mind it the country has plenty of hopes pinned on you". in the meanwhile maagi arrived and rahul struggled to balance the suitcase files and maagi, i offred to help him S:" sir, give it to me ill hold it for you " i took the file from him, then we both started for nilgiri again
R:" hmm so wat r ur future plans masters, IAS, job " S:" haaa am not too interested in a technical job doing mba is surely an option for me" R:" so u want to be the boss gud mi opinion has always been that one should always do wat he is interested in, nothing should be forced on u " by this time we had reached nilgiri R:" so u mite be feeling proud to be an iitian " S:" haaaan not really i sometimes feel that am a complete misfit here " R:" ohh come on dissapointments are apart and parcel of life and bouncing back more strongly after every dissappointment is what seperates iitians from others" Gaurd:" sir wo sanjeev ka room tho locked hain" S:"ohh ok sir i guess he has gone home and mite return tommorow" R:"hmmm then if thats the case .... no problem ill come back next week dont worry anyways it was nice meeting u heres mi card" S:"it was gr8 meeting u and do come back ur always welcome" .
then suddenly a junior called srinivas comes in j:" sirrr gud morning sir" S:" itne subah subah kya kar raha hain" J:"was not getting any sleep was watching prison break and aap kya kar rahe ho" S:"nothing yaar jus wanted some fresh air and met this alumni ... arey yaar uska file mere paas rahgaya ek min dekhna wo bahar hi hoga" i & junior ran out of nilgiri to look for him but no sign of rahul "oh yaar poor chap uska file mere paas hi rahgaya" J:" kaun tha sir itni tension kyon lerahe ho" S:"koi alumni tha ... wait i have his card us pe phone no hoga " it read rahul verma blah blah 756625, 465804 S:" magar isme tho koi cell no bhi nahin hain do landline nos hain" J:"chalo karte hain sir" S:" chal " 2 .7.5.6.6.2.5............this dial code doesnt exist ........ S:"dial code doesnt exist dikharaha " J:" doosara no try karo naa" " haannn 2.4.6.5.8.0.4......" "same aaraha hain " S:" kya fight ho sakti hain shit no bhi kaam nahin kar raha one min usne house secy ke board kissi ko closely dekhtha lets look for him chal" J:" siiirrr muje nind aarahi hain afternoon main dekhlenge " S:" chalna 2 min kaa kaam hain". we reached the guest room where the boards were hung S:" aaannnn.....87 ...84 ...83 haan addityya sharma yes milgaya" J:" magar isse kya karoge jaanke" S:" hmmm kya karunga haan i heard sometime that the caretaker maintains the records of all the alumni their present contact no also lets check him thrrr" J:" par abhi to caretaker so rahe honge" S:" shit haannn... chalo phir afternoon main hi dekhna padega get me up by 11 ok chal phir soja". we both returned to our rooms and slept

time: 11.00am Junior:"sirrrr get up its already 11 get uppppp"
S" wat happpennnned " J:" sir ur alumni we were goin to search for him" S:" yaayaaa yaad ayya mere purse se wo card lana, chal chalte hain" we both went to the caretaker office where our caretaker mr dubey was sitting on a chair dubey:" come in samrat kyaa hua kuch tension main lag rahe ho wats teh matter" S :" sirr i wanted some information do u know anyone by the name rahul verma " D:" kaunsa rahul verma rahul tho bahut hain yaar abhi hostel main hain kyaa" S:" no sirr he is our hostel's alumni 83-84 batch paasout " D:" 83-84 tho bahut purani baat hain yaar kuch yaad tho nahin aaraha kuch secretary the kya wo" S:" sir phir aapko aditya sharma yaad hain kya wo apne house secretary thein 1983 main board ,main bhi likha hua hain " D:"kuch yaad tho nahin aaraha pramod ji se puchlo wo tho bahut pehle se kaam kar rahe hain" pramodji was our mess supervisor an elderly person S:" sir aur maine suna hain u keep some records of all teh batches till now agar ho tho plzz toda dekhiye sir:" just then pramod comes in p:" haan samratji kya hua problem kya hain " dubeyji checking in the almirah for the student record files S:" sir aapko koi aditya sharma pata hain kya apne hostel ke house secy thein wo 1983 main" P:" kuch suna suna sa hain naam kuch bata nahin sakta pakke se" just then dubeyji places a file after dusting it D:"haan samrat here is ur file student record for the batch 83-84 isme dekhlo hoga shayad" i and junior got down to search for rahul verma, the file was such that it had one page alloted to each studnet details of his 8 semesters and his present adress if available S:" rahullllll......rahullllll.....yaa got it yes it was the same guy his photo was also there 1st sem..... 2nd yr.... 3rd yr..... 4th yr ...... wat was it the 4th year was striked out and some writtings in red and blue were not viisible because the ink got smudged confused i turned to praamod S:" sirr ye kya hain samaj main nahin aa raha hain kuch clear nahin hain idar present adress bhi kuch nahin hain kuch batayiye" P:" ek min muje dikhao aannn kaun hain rahul verma hmmm ye writing tho.... meri hain sign bhi hain mere dean sir ke bhi hain kya case thaa hain ye...... hmmm... arey haaan ye tho wahi case hain yaad ye dubeyji ye ladka rahul verma nilgiri ka hi tha bahut hoshiyaar tha bechara " D:" kaun rahul verma yaar muje tho yaad nahin aaraha " P:" arey wahi rahul vermaa jisne ... wooo nilgiri se khood ke sucide kar liyaa tha!!!!!!!!! bahut accha ladka thaa bechara kya hogaya tha suddenly idar hi upar se kood ke apna jaan dediya" D:" kyaa kuch ladki kaa chakar tha kyaa " P:" nahin yaar aisa kuch nahin tha padayi main bhi acha tha dance bhi karta tha najane kuch tension main tha kisine bola tha ki dostonke saat ladayi , padayii bhi ho sakti hain kuch nahin pata....." dumb founded. hearing those words a chill ran through mi spine sucide but how on earth can this happen i had met this guy in the morning, was i dreaming if i was dreaming then wat was that file he gave me and tht visiting card D:" haan samrat aapko kya kaam tha rahul verma se wo tho matlab 83 mainhi margaye thein " S:" aaannn nahin sir kuch nahin aise hi .. chalo sir main chalta hoon" saying these words i got out of the caretakers room " how can this happen if rahul verma had died who was the person i had met in the morning was it just a halocination , one min that file " remembering tht file i ran upstairs J:" sir kyaa hua pata laga rahul ke baarein main" S:" haan haaan lag gaya thanks yaar mil tha hu baad main" i ran to mi rrom and opened it and searched for the file and thank god found it in a corner wat was that file, it read
Chemical Engineering department
Major project part 2
Design of a fixed bed reactor

GUIDE Student
O P Gupta Rahul Verma


fuck !!!!it was a btech project report and this was the same topic that i was working on i ran thru the pages and at the end it was signed with love
rahul verma
i couldnt believe mi eyes !!! i was speechless


After that day i had many more niteouts and roamed in iit many times but never met rahul verma again !!! i guess he had come just to remind me what i was missing in life " i was merely existing not living mi life" he changed my perspective towards life and i owe a lot to him if only i knew where he was i just wanted to say " Thank u"..........

5th feb 2020 revisited !!! hehehe

" See the point is , tell them that we need time to think, a profit of 15 million is sure a temptation, but we also have our reputation, we cant let down our clients at any cost plz do send this message across quickly " retorted rana "sir we have abhilash sir online" "yaa sure ok then ayesha do send the letter immediately, aan abhilash cheppu enti holiday aa enduku idi aa pichodi suggestionena phone iyyi vaadiki, entra edo holiday kavalanav anta" " adi kadra ..uuka marchipoyava we planned to go to delhi antalone marchipote ella raa, me and abhilash will come down for lunch we'll discuss that then c yaa" replied samrat
ayesha:"enti edo holiday antunaru suddenga enti ee panduga kuda raavatlede" officer1:"ada all of them iitd alumni telsa anduke prathi year 1 week trip delhi ki vestaru entha pani unna sare vaalu eltaru" A:"nijanga entha baauntadi kada andaru friends alla oke company pedte malli adrustam undale denikaina aunu evarevaru iitd nunchi"C1:"samrat sir" andaru board of directors rana sir samrat sir, abhilash sir, sagar sir rathod sir" A:" enti sagar sir kuda iit aa eppudu edo oka kullu joke vestauntadu" C1:"shhhh!! vallu vastunaru"
Abhiilash: "aunu malli tickets anni book chesava leka malli...."S:"arey sachin edo okkasari duck out aithe vaadu sachin kakunda pothada enti, samrat raa eppudo book chesesa hahaa" R:"sorry raa aa mata marchepoyya aunuu aaa ticketss ayyaaya..." C1:"sir we have got the tickets for kingfisher airlines" aan okasari date chudu correctga unda date " hmm date correctgane undi sir 15th feb delhi to hyd" "waat malli hyd to delhi emayayi, evaru chesaru book?" "aanaaa adi samrat sir " "hmmm anukunna ilanti pani inkevaru chestaru" A: "tickets book chesava, chichchi entha peddagayana brain mathram allane undi eppudu marthar ayya"
"arey nenu adaina chesa meeru adi cheyaledu kada raa, matladtunaru pedda iyanemmo holiday endukanta marchpondra annam ichini cheyni chaduvu chepinna iitni meeranthe peddollu ayaru kada, iitindi enti memaina aavulama ee aakuralenti chicken biryani temmani chepane" R:"arey roju chicken entra nene voddana anni tinali raa" A:"rannna idi nuvvena matladedi baane unnav kada" S:" aunu sagar inka rathod eeri inka raleda" R:"vaallu factory secundrabad ellaru @#$ company vaalltho iroju meeting undi vachestarle evenning varaku""Rana iroju sayntram nite show "Mlechudu" eldama super acting chesadanta jr ntr "" worth antava barincha galamantava, ok am in" S:"naaku begumpet lo chinna pani undi" A:"baabu nuvvu poltu vadalva malli praja rajyam vallane kada kalisedi nuvvu malli correct time ki raavu ellaku" S:"anthaledu vasta raa babu just oka meeting undi non- political raa edo blood donation camp gurunchi anta"

Location : prasads multiplex time: 8:30pm Sagar & rathod standing at the entrance
Vidya Sagar:"arey akada chudu super figure raa asaaaaaaaallllu " R:"abba aunty raaaa em baundi raa"V:"chii neekasalu tasteeledu raa aunty aithe entra aunty sexy gaa undaleda eppudu nerchkuntarra meeru taste chhee" Sam:"entra ikada nilabadaru emchestunaru" V:"idi ninantinunchi asalu clean cheyaledantandi memu ikada udavadaniki vacham ayanmeerenti maa tho matladutunaru naaku sigestundi babu: S:"joke kullindile oye rathod iroju meeting emaindi deal on aa?" R:"emo raa almost anukunta they will let us know by tommorow" V:"randi babu randi sagam cinema aypoindanta le correctintervalki vacharu ade santhosham" A:"abba inka 5 mins undile" V:" deniki cinema aypovadanika " S:"mustava koncham asalu nuvvu raananav kada malli ella udipadav" ika appandi mee gola lets go in .......

February 5th 2020!!!!

Tringg Tringgg !!!! "hello haan cheppu maa aa vastunna intiki in half an hour yaa dinner intlone sare pettu byeee"
sammy:"yaar main kal delhi ko jaa raha hoon tu board meeting dekhlena in mi absence"
Arun: " aunu ippudu delhi enti, any official thing emi ledanukunta"
sammy: " kaadraa waste fellow repatiki it would be 10 years since i have left IIT delhi v have planned a get together and there is also some alumini meet in our hostel so anxiously waiting to catch up with mi old friends"
Arun: " House secy eltunadanamata ok darling no problem take ur own time relish those old memories nenu adigan ani cheppu andarni"
sammy: sure pakka bye intlo dad and mom waiting byee c yaa !!!

yaa it has been 10 years since i passed out from IIT delhi in the summer of 2009 but it feels like as if it was yesterday that i had won the house secy elections, hmmm those were really gr8 times those nite outs, b'day bumps(always used to dodge them),minors, presentations, cricket matches, mafias, ap bawan, who can forget "rendezvous" the biggest north indian festival, fight for passes, long lines, "pulse"( donno if still iitians go there),mess food,nil best nil best cheering,lan hot mom series, prison break, those constant fights with everyone,those manali, mussorie trips (i always have those pics on mi desktop)inter hostel rivalry and the list goes onnnnnn...... phew got to home had mi dinner and had to leave the next morning
next morning flight landing in New Delhi vroooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmm ...... haaaaaaa that chilly weather hasnt changed at all "bhayya iit chaloge " "300!!" hehehe good old autos havnt changed tooo and after bargaining got into one. the trip from the airport to iit flashed all the memories back in mi mind palam airport then came daulon kuon munirka !!!! hasnt changed a lot still same old crowd and road side shops now we were approaching iit ohhh!! the flyover has finally completed which was under construction wen i was in iit ohh wat sasssi still there cant beleive mi eyes!!! now finally came the main gate "Indian Institute Of Technology Delhi" security hmmm oh they now atleast check the vehciles flashing the alumni card did help us in getting in, the security has tightened with underground cameras, jammers being used !! M S main building the same old building cant stop mi emotions " bhayya idar rokna " got down and started to walk hmm himadri kailash and now sahyadri one more gils hostel gud!! bustling activity as usual in and around M S mi watch read 10:30 today was the start of the 3 day alumni meet which happened annually,starting from last year. eagerly wanted to see "wind t" the heart of iit as many say haaa gud old wind t students sitiing there in groups chatting away endlessly saw some prof walking past " prof kale " ..en chod shit couldnt stop miself kale was still here he was a terror in our times with his compulsory attendance rule and many more inhuman rules, we had to register ourself online before coming but as usual i screwed up forgot everything about registering went to the help desk out there " excuse me miself samrat 2009 passout can i know the procedure to register for the alumni meet" suddenly i felt a hand on mi back "yes" i couldnt recognise him did i know him "..ehen chod maddu sale itni jaldi bhulgaya" " gaurav !!!! naa couldnt be, so nicely dressed, couldnt believe mi eyes" " salle gaurav kaisa hain kidar hain kya kar raha hain abhi bhi macharaha hain kyaaa" "nahin yaar kya machaunga sabkuch chod diya did mi masters at claremont univ also did mi phd now am currently with histogenics, tu bata tu kahan hain aaj kal IIM ke baad kya kiya suna tha bheech main ki apni company khol liya must be a big man now" " (now) kya sale hostel main bhi to big man hi tha " " hehehe haan haan bete tu badlega nahin" "iim ke baad 2 saal kaam kiya now "molding destinies" suna hoga, kuch doston ke saat mil kar start kiya pehle main ..nd phat gayi thi magar phir ab sahi chal raha hain" " gr8 man aur suna apne saat aur bhi to ek maddu tha wo lamba saa " " kaun ? achaa ..man haan yaad aaya nahin pata yaar itt ke baad dikha hi nahin IIM A gaya tha shayad no freaking idea about him, and by the way kitne aa rahe hainapne batch ke kuch pata hain" " kaafi junta aarahi hain, i guess hostel main honge" sammy: haan hostel kaisa hain gaya kya , gaurav:nahin yaar eagerly waiting to go chale kya?. " shivram rathod 2010 pass out" "rathod did i know this chap, rathod haan yes rathodddddd kaisa hain" rathod:"haan ohhh samratttt ella unnav sale eppudu vachav ekadunav enti asalu evarki asalu vinatle kada" sammy:" enni rojulaindiraa kalisi 6 years i guess last time at maddy's pelli anukunta kada" r:"aan aunu registeredaa chal phir podam hostelki vidovadu mana batchena " s:" aunu raa maa hostel raa " R:"manolu evaraina kalisara evarevaru vastunaru telsa emaina" s:"telidra ipude vacha nenu kuda" S:"gaurav tu chal hostel main aarhan hoon" ok chal phir milte hain hostel main " cheppu ra rathod hows life going on hyd lonena manolu ella unaru anybody in touch ?" R:"rana kalisadraa monna edo pelli lo u remeber rana rite " S:" ranaa yaya kara undedi kada vaadidi ade anni order chese vaadu gurtunadra how can i forget him vaala companylone intern chesindi of course adi fraudy anuko ella unadu vaadu vaadini kalisi chal rojulaindi maddy pelliki kuda raaledanukunta vaadu kada" R:"aunu he was not in india at that point, baane unadra koncham lavvu ekadra he was enquiring abot pawan remember him" S:"epk ne kada hmm gurtunadu vadekada unadu vilandarni asalu btech tarvatha eppudu kalavaledraa inka arunaa aunu arun konda ella unadu" R:"epk konda ni last hyd lo kalisaraa gurthu ledu arey vaadu evado gurtunada " S:" evadraaa haan, vaadi peru ananth anukuntta comedy chese vadanukunta not sure yaar" R:"aunraa, andaru entha maari poyar raa" S:"identraa cafe coffee day iitlo abbbo change aindra konchamaina ipudu kuda mess food alane unda leka emaina change ainda heheh mess secy unde kada arey kaale inka unadu telsa ..dda pagili poindi chudagane of course ipudu em pekaledanuko aunu vaaadi perentraa nallaga vindy lo unde vaadu eppudu NSS anevadu malli ekadaina darshanam ichi nss panemaina chepada wat was his name" R:" mahidhar hehhe nope nakuantha adrustama ledraa nijanga chala happy after so long andarni malli kalustunam ipudu aa attendance has decresed to 50% telsa ekado chadiva" S: " atleast taginchar raa babu eppudu aa poduna classlu attend kaleka sachevallam, identi idem building raa eppudu vachindi bharti pakana undedaa ledraa nakasalu gurtuledu it read" bio technology block" abbo seperate bio block neeku jessica gurtunda ippudu vaalidaru married telsa naku los angles lo kanipincharu okasari nene gelika heheee inka alane udniraa adi" R: " gurtundi raa dani ella marchipogalam juice shop ediraa manam inka raleda enti kade hospital tarvatha undale" " adugu " "bhayya idar ek juice shop kidar hain " stranger:" wotho 5 saal hogaya uske place main ee shopping complex agaya" R:"juice shop ledanamata things had to change ipudu ekadiki raa hostel kaa ?" S:" aunu raa cant wait to see NILGIRI nuvvu jwala ki ellu nenu ninnu 2 hrs tarvatha kalustha ""ok raa" now walking thru nalanda where once i had supposedly seen a ghost in mi 2nd year now was a lush green outfield with fencing all round turned into a beautiful garden to its left was "S A C " now a magnificient 3 floored building hmmm interesting the walk to nilgiri reminded me of how we used to run to our classes looking for rickshaws and lifts anything to get us to the class finally "NILGIRI stood there wow the fountain which i had started was sparkling bright those animal structures were still there "NIL BULLS it read its hard to improve upon perfection at the entrance, interesting i thought "excuse me sir iam ankur choudry am the house secy of nilgiri" "house secy, how good it felt to hear that samrat 2009 passout of nilgiri " " i know u sir u were our house secy "" aann yes gud to see u remember is it still written there on the boards ?" i enquired" wat board sir everything has been computerized we have ur name flasing on the screen " " wow i thought now we can see some technology" " this is k v srikanth our maintainence secy he will take u around " " hi hows it going are the toilets still stinking and wat abot the water problem is it still there" sri:" hehe no sir the toilets have certainly became better and we have solved the water a bit with the help of water harvesting, " S:" gud to hear that and wats that ?" sri:" thats the photo and video exibhition from 1995 to 2020, excuse me sir ill be thr in a min" S:" ohhh plzz carry on, lets check if we have any photos aannnaaan aaaaan yaa one frm our batch ohhh yes thr another one of holi hey thr was mi photo on the house but who was that gazing at it so closely hmmmmm ohhh i knew him he was mi junior aannnaaaann h,mmmm abhilash yes he was a dancer yes i remember him quite abhilash i called out" he turned but couldnt see me and turned back then i went kept mi hand on his shoulder " abhilash samrat here" " having a startled look and suddenly burst a flow of happiness "sammmy he cried ella unnav how u doing"S:"gr8 man very happy to see u how u doing still dancing hehe ekada untunav raa em chestunav me in hyd itself last met at maddy's marraige i guess"" yeses aunu chala maripoyav samrat kani aa smile inka alane undi me jus returned frm us me too trying to setttle down in hyd as mi parents too r in hyd and by the way nee jutenti alane undi nekasalu batta tala vastundemo anukunam kada enti matter " S:"hehee its sammy's magic again" A:"bongem kadu inka evraina kalisara annath vachadu chusava " S:" aunu chusa vadini kani he was in a hurry as usual pada chala change aindiraa mana hostel do u remember those nite outs tarvatha maggi kosam nescafeki miss those moments yaar seriously " " aunu neeku telsa nilgiri has been winning BRCA for the last 3 yrs" " auna kummar kada andukena mundu aa slogan fistlo ardam kaledu too much kada ....